It ought to’ve been the most effective night time of Nicole Kidman’s skilled life, however her debut Oscar win for Finest Actress in 2003 was overshadowed by her personal heartache.
In uncommon perception into the Australian star’s high-profile cut up from Tom Cruise, Kidman tells creator Dave Karger in his new guide 50 Oscar Nights she had solely simply finalised her divorce from the Prime Gun actor on the time of her award win. They have been married for 11 years.
Kidman, who was 35 on the time, took to the stage on the Dolby Theatre in Hollywood to simply accept the award for her function as Virginia Woolf in The Hours, the place she visibly broke down as she tried to make a speech.
“Russell Crowe mentioned don’t cry if you rise up there, and now I’m crying,” she mentioned onstage.
“I used to be battling issues in my private life, but my skilled life was going so properly,” she says of the second within the upcoming guide, through Individuals. “That’s what occurs, proper?”
Regardless of the milestone second, Kidman says she wasn’t in a celebratory temper and wished to skip the glitzy Vainness Truthful after-party in favour of going residence to mattress.
“I’m not an enormous occasion lady, so I used to be going to skip the Vainness Truthful occasion, and everybody was like, ‘You’ve bought to go. You’ve bought to stroll by way of the occasion carrying your Academy Award,’” she says.
“I mentioned, ‘That simply seems like gloating, and it doesn’t really feel humble.’ Like, what? You may’t stroll by way of carrying the award! That feels actually inappropriate. They’re like, ‘That’s what you do.’”
Kidman, now 56, did find yourself attending the after-party briefly to pose for photographers, however admits she didn’t get pleasure from a second of it – one thing she now regrets.
“So I actually walked in, carried it round, was utterly overwhelmed, emotional, shaking, and I didn’t get pleasure from it. I used to be nearly apologetic, which is so silly. I want I may have loved it extra,” she says.
“I went residence and ended up ordering takeout and consuming it on the ground of the Beverly Hills Lodge … I sat on the ground of the lodge consuming French fries and a burger with my household and went to mattress.
“That’s when it hit me. I went, I want to seek out my love; I want a love in my life. As a result of that is speculated to be if you go, ‘That is ours.’”
She provides, “I went to mattress alone; I used to be in mattress earlier than midnight. If I ever received once more, I’m telling you, I’d be out for twenty-four hours.”
Kidman is but to win one other Oscar, having been nominated thrice since for Rabbit Gap (2011), Lion (2017) and Being The Ricardos (2022).
Finally, she bought what she says she wanted in the best way of a lifelong love, after assembly Keith City on the G’Day USA Gala in 2005.
The couple, who’ve been married for 17 years, share two youngsters, daughters Sunday Rose, 15 and Religion Margaret, 13.
Kidman additionally shares two youngsters with Cruise, together with Isabella Jane, whom they adopted as a new child in 1992, in addition to Connor, whom additionally they adopted as a new child in 1995.
Whereas rumours have circled over time Kidman is not shut with the pair, who selected to dwell with Cruise after the couple’s divorce, the Large Little Lies star has all the time refuted these claims, repeatedly affirming her love for all 4 of her youngsters.
Whereas selling her 2016 movie Lion, wherein her character was an adoptive mom, Kidman mentioned the film was “a love letter to my youngsters.”
“I relate to that. I really feel that for my very own youngsters who’re adopted,” Kidman mentioned on the time. “It’s not about anything apart from ‘I wished you.’
“It’s that deep and private, and no matter your journey is, I’m right here to like and help you.”
